Last night was really fun. It had a rocky start, but it was overall a blast. Steph and Stacey came over around 10pm for me to do their hair (to get their hair did, lol). Erica couldn't come cause she "had to" go to see Pat, but Joe came over and we started drinking. Now the thing about drinking at my house is that we always come to my house before we go to the bars and my parents always are nice enough to drive us down to the bars. The problem is that some people don't respect my house and my parents when they continue to be loud and obnoxious even after I repeatedly ask them to quiet down. I understand that when you are drinking you may get loud, but I'm sorry, it is important to remember where you are and respect the people around you. We probably won't be drinking much at my house anymore because it has become impossible for some people to control themselves. I won't mention any names *coughJoePerrycough*, lol.

So we headed down to the bars after my dad reamed me out and started at Wylie's (as usual). Ricky was there and was being really nice, but I know that I don't want to be bothered with that, so I just kinda tried to ignore him. We went up to Copperfield's with Isaac, our g-town friend who loves Joe. Isaac and I were singing "Proud Mary" again and he was calling my Tina and I called him Ike, lol. Copperfield's was rather crowded so that was fun, NOT. My bro was there though, and so were some other note worthy people, so we stuck around. Joe saw some people he wanted to see, and we talked to them too, so it put him in an excellent mood, and when Joe is happy, I am happy, lol. After the bar was closing we walked down to Cam's for some eats. Joe and I sat down and Therese Puma sat with us with her boyfriend. It was a little weird because I like haven't talked to her for more then like 2 minutes since we were in pre-school, but it was a drunken good time to catch up. Joe and I wanted to walk home because Joe had his car at my house but needed to sober up, and I just always feel like walking when I'm really drunk. Steph and Stacey got a ride, which is probably better cause I wasn't really talking to them much anyways. I'm not mad, I am just annoyed because it happens every time we drink at my house, and I don't like making my parents feel like dirt when they are nice enough to let everyone come over before the bars. Joe and I called Erica on the way home and left her a long, drawn out, drunken message, lol. I hope she appreciates it!

All in all it was a fun time, and I love Joe Perry, we'll have to see if tonight can match it...

So yesterday we came back from Binghampton to shovel out our house, lol. After the shoveling was finished we all sat down to open gifts. I got a DVD player, some DVDs, pj pants, some gift certificates, SOCKS, and a nature sounds alarm clock thingy. I've been warned by Steph that I shouldn't listen to the brook sounds cause it will make me wet the bed, but I told her I'd probably wet the bed anyways and not to worry about it. After gifts my brother's chick called. I'm really glad to see that he is at least talking to someone. Cause I think he is a funny, intellegent guy and deserves to have someone. I guess it's exciting to me cause I've never seen him with a girlfriend. Mostly because he didn't have one in high school, and if he had one in college he wouldn't have told me about her anyways. So go Dan! lol

I went to dinner at Parkers with the family. Later Erica and Joe came over so we could all go out. We went to Parkers first, then Seneca Grille so Joe could hustle Steph and Stacey in pool. Then we headed to Wylies and were verbally assulted by the drunks in there, so we went to Gallagher's instead. Jon was there and his crew. He bought me a drink and we were talking, but all he did was basically confuse me. First he told me it really bothered him that he saw me walking home with Ricky. I explained what happened to him, and I told him that I like him more than anyone else at home. So he said that he is not a "relationship kind of guy". So I said "that's nice, I never asked you to be my boyfriend, especially since I am going back to school in 2 weeks", I told him I just like hanging out with him, and have a good time with him. He went on to say that he is attracted to me, but that he doesn't want to be exclusive. To which I SHOULD have said "Then why does it bother you that I was walking home with Ricky?", but I wasn't that quick about it. So we all went to Copperfield's and when we were going to leave I went over to say bye to Jon and he said for me to call him. Once again, to which I should have said "why should I call you if you don't want to hang out with me", but I was slow again. I am just confused by the situation. If he likes me he should just let it happen, and not worry about labels or exculsivity. I don't want to be exclusive with him unless he wants to be with only me. I don't even know why I'm letting it bother me. I'm going back to school in 2 weeks, then I graduate in May and I'll probably never see any of these people ever again anyways...

Sunday Slice, Steph and I rented "Buying the Cow" which was really funny, and I liked a lot, then we all headed home cause we had to work the next day.

Monday I worked. Fun fun fun at good ole Wegmans' pizza. I ran errands with Stacey before work and was really pissed cause I found out I can't get my cell phone fixed til I get to Buffalo, which SUCKS cause I have like everyone's numbers in it and can't call anyone, but I'll get over it... someday. After work Erica, Joe and I went to Parker's for a drink. We basically just stood there and looked at and talked about other people, it was fun people watching.

Tuesday I worked again, then got ready for church. I realized when I went to church, that I have serious issues with the Catholic church. I just sat there thinking about how hypocritical some of the stuff is, and how everyone judges eachother. It really made me sick to my stomache. I mean I believe in God and everything, I just think religion in general is just messed up. Then my dad made us leave right after communion because we were leaving for Binghampton that night instead of Christmas morning because the weather was going to be bad. That just annoyed me because what is the point of going if you can'te experience the whole thing. I just really think I'm not going to go to church for awhile til I can figure some things out.

Like I said we left for Binghampton on Christmas Eve to avoid the weather that was coming in Christmas Day. We got there around midnight and just went to bed. Christmas day I seriously just watched reruns of Felicity all day. We ate dinner and opened presents, yadda yadda. Christmas just isn't the same anymore. I hope I don't feel like this forever. Cause I'm just getting sick of it.

ok, so I have yet to write about Saturday. Saturday Stacey and I headed downtown with my bro and his friends Soule, and John Hannan. We went to Gallaghers where I played darts with Stacey and we got hit on by my first grade gym teacher's son, lol. Erica, Joe and Chris met us there, then we headed to Wylies with Stacey and I singing "Proud Mary" on the way up. Of course Stacey fell on the way there because she was drunk and laughing so hard at me. We walked into Wylies, played photo hunt and headed to Copperfield's after. Copperfield's was fun cause there was a DJ and food from the Christmas party. I was pretty wasted. Joe wasn't having a good time and decided to leave, which sucked because he should have stayed for reasons I will not mention. But I know how he feels, sometimes you just REALLY don't want to be out. After Joe left we headed to Cam's for some pizza. Erica was ready to fight someone, anyone really, for like no reason, lol. At Cam's we got serenaded by 3 black guys and it was hilarious. They were rapping and said something like "impress her, wanna undress her", lol. Stacey told them we could be their back-up dancers. We walked home after that and I found a shopping cart and rammed it into Ricky's car, lol. I didn't ram it hard though, but it was funny at the time. I know I am forgetting stuff cause I had an awesome night, but I can't remember what, so I'll just leave it at that.

Oh Friday, Friday, Friday... Another drunken crazy night in downtown Geneva. Erica, Joe, Steph and Stacey all came over to drink a bit before we hit the bars. We went to Wylie's first, as usual, to do some shots and have a few drinks. When we walked in Chad, Brooke and Larissa were all there, so it was cool. We all just hung out and played photo hunt. Steph suffered a mild concussion when Stacey clocked her in the head with the bathroom door, lol. I tried to ignore Ricky and not look at him, but he was talking to this red-headed chick (who has a boyfriend mind you) so I was a tad jealous. Before we left to go to Copperfield's I went over and interrupted them and told him to look for me before he left... I wish I knew how to play hard to get, lol.

Copperfield's was pretty fun. Denise, LeeAnna, Cokely and Penta were all there, so it was cool to see them since I haven't seen them in like a year. Most of the rest of the night there is a blur, except for yelling at Angelo. I remember that. He burnt my new coat with his cigarette so I was pretty pissed and ignored him the rest of the night, when he was leaving I was yelling something about him wearing shorts to the bar in the middle of winter, it was amusing at the time. I also remember talking to Stacey on the phone outside Copperfields after she had left with Chad, Brooke, and Steph, then Matt Valenti ( now a cop, but who use to work at Wegmans with us) pulled up and I handed the phone to him to talk to her, lol. Things got a interesting when I was walking home with Ricky and I saw Jon and Eric getting in Jon's car. They both gave me a look like "ok, what the hell?" and that was it. It's not like I am even seeing either of them, only innocent flirtations, and it's not like either have shown interest in dating me, so don't owe them any explainations. I kinda wish Jon hadn't seen us though.

On to Thursday. There's not much to say about this night. Steph, Erica and Joe all came back from school for their break thursday, so we decided to go to the bars (yes this is becoming a nightly thing, lol). So we picked up Larissa, who wanted to go out too, and headed to Wylie's. We walked in and Ricky was there. We all ordered a drink and just hung out. I let Joe listen to my message from the redneck, and at this point Ricky comes over says something stupid like "did you get your hair cut?" (yeah only 2 months ago, you tard) and wants to know if I'm leaving. I said I wasn't and he's like "oh, I just wanted to make sure you weren't leaving with out saying goodbye". No one was really having a great time, so we went to leave and go to Parker's. On the way out I passed Ricky. I don't want a relationship with him (I don't think), but I would like to hang out with him. I guess I'm just lonely and I want someone to pursue, or be pursued by. Plus with all the crap Ricky said over Thanksgiving about missing me and how he thought about us being together over the summer, makes me think that he does like me and something could come of it. Ugh!

Ok, I've really been slacking with the blog, so I'm going to write about Wednesday in this entry.

Slice and I went out to Parker's for a drink on Wednesday night cause we had nothing better to do. We just hung out and bonded and gossiped, it was a lot of fun. We were talking about this hobart kid that I met over Thanksgiving break and I was saying that I haven't seen him in a long time. About 5 minutes after I said that, I looked over the table next to us and noticed that he was sitting right there! I got so red in the face and I couldn't look at him. Stacey is like "That's why he keeps looking over here!" When they were getting up to leave he walked by and I just said hello and he said hello back and smiled, but that was enough for me!

We went to live about 20 minutes later and were walking to the car and Eric that called us over to the Seneca Grille. Oh yeah speaking of the Seneca Grille, that redneck from PY called me Wednesday and wants to take me out, but of course I haven't called him back. So we go in there to have a drink cause Eric wanted us to, and Jon is in there too. The situtaion is a little sticky because it's fun to flirt with Eric, but I also like to flirt with Jon, and have a history with Jon. Since I don't know how Jon feels about me, I continue to flirt with both of them. But Eric bought me a drink and asked me for my number and what not. So we go to leave and Jon calls me on my cell on my way to the car and is talking to me on my way home. He asked me if he could call me on Thursday, and I said I didn't know if that was a good idea because I didn't want to come between him and Eric. Apparently this is news to Jon and he is like "Well I'd like to call you, do you want me to call you?" and of course I do, so that was that. I went home utterly confused... but what else is new.

I'm not going to start this entry with "Oh my god, I'm so hungover", but I am a little, lol. I know what you must be thinking "It's Tuesday, who the hell goes out on a Monday night?". The answer to that question would be ME and JOE! Last night we went to Parker's for a drink (and to stalk secret boyfriend from hobart whose birthday was yesterday, lol). We had a drink at Parker's, but my boy toy wasn't there so we decided to bar hop til we found him. We went to the Seneca Grill next, and ended up staying there the rest of the night. There were like 4 other people in the bar. The bartender and 3 of his drunk friends. We started playing pool, then the drunken boys asked us to play darts with them. They kept buying us drinks, and the bartender even let me go behind the bar and make myself a drink, lol. It was SOO much fun. Joe and I won one of the games of darts too. They thought that Joe and I were a couple so we told them that we are step-brother and step-sister (his dad married my mom), but that we live in different houses cause our parents aren't married anymore to each other, lol. One of the drunken boys was talking to me for a long time cause his family owns The Viking resort in Penn Yann, so since I'm Hotel Management, and I was wasted it was thrilling to talk to someone in the business, lol. I gave him my number cause he asked for it, but I'm not worried about him calling cause I'm not terribly interested in a 27yr old, and he is leaving in a week. Joe thought highly of him though, so I know he's a decent guy :) And I think one of the guys was hitting on Joe, but he was married so...?

After the bar closed we were too drunk to drive home, so we walked around downtown to sober up. We called Angie and woke her up to congradulate her on her trip to meet the senator, I'm sure she was thrilled to hear from us at 2am, lol. Joe left a message for Erica too, I don't know what he said cause I was talking to Angie at the time, but I'm sure it was entertaining. Joe and I also walked up to Main St. and did more stalking, lol. Overall it was the best Monday night ever, even though we didn't find my hobart stud, I still had so much fun with Joe. We'll have to repeat it again next week ;)

Oh my god, I'm so hungover AGAIN... last night we went out in GENEVA to celebrate my birthday. You see my birthday is always at least a 3-day celebration, even though today is the only day it is actually my birthday! I drove home yesterday afternoon, but couldn't pick up Erica because the weather was bad. I figured that Steph wouldn't be able to come either, so I just thought we weren't going to do much. Luckily I was wrong, and we had a great night!

Stacey and I went to eat at Ciccino's then picked up some vanilla vodka and root beer (it's becoming a house favorite). We watched The Sweetest Thing while we waited for Joe to get out of work, and drank most of the bottle of vodka. When Joe got here Ann Osborne drove us to the bars. Wylie's was pretty dead, but I saw Ricky who says he is going to call me over break, so we'll see if that starts up again... So we went to Parker's so Slice could get a White Russian. We strategically seated ourselves at the bar next to some cute boys. I struck up a conversation, but it was hard to keep a straight face when Joe was constantly saying "DO him", lol. We left our new friends who said they hoped to see us later and headed to copperfields.

There weren't a lot of people at Copperfields, but that's ok with me cause I don't like a lot of people. I did see Larissa Jordan who I hadn't seen in a while so that was nice, and she looks awesome. She lost like 60 pounds and just seems really happy and confident. DJ was there too, which was awesome. I haven't seen him in sooo long. Plus he bought me a shot so that made me even happier (and more drunk). The rest of the night gets a bit blurry. I remember I talked to Eric Sousa for awhile, bit Kevin Turnbull's ear, slapped Tyler Carey, and dropped my full drink on the ground, lol. Oh yeah and I peed in front of Joe, lol. I love Joe and Slice for taking me out, I just hope they had as much fun as I did, but I'm not sure that's possible, lol.

Today I just slept in, then went to see Maid in Manhattan w/ my mom. It was ok, but not worth the theater trip, I recommend waiting for it to come out on video. My parents also took me to dinner at Nonna’s, which was cute, I love them!

I just want to thank everyone who called me today to wish me a happy birthday! You all made me feel special and I love you! A special shout out to Joe and Stacey for a great night! I'll see the rest of the G-town crew when you all get home, and we'll keep celebrating my b-day, lol. Love you all! Happy B-day to me!

Oh my god I'm so hungover... last night we went out in Buffalo to celebrate my birthday, and as promised it was the drunkest night of the year. First we all went out to eat at Montana's, kinda like an Outback Steakhouse, but with a wider selection and lower prices. It was Happy Hour when we got there so we had some Mic Ultra Light pints. Since it was my b-day celebration the wait staff sang and made me wear moose ears. I pretended like I didn't want them to sing and what not, but everyone knows I love being the center of attention, so you know that I was eating it up.

After dinner we just came back to the house and kept drinking. We played some games and danced and what not, then hit the bar. When I say "the bar", I am almost always speaking of Heenan's (just for future reference). I had already finished half a bottle of Vanilla vodka by myself, but I can't refuse free shots, especially not on my birthday. So I must have had at least 7 shots of SoCo and lime. I loose count and my memory becomes blurry after the 3rd shot, so I'll tell you what I remember of the rest of the night. Apparently I was talking to this lacrosse player Jay (my ex's former roommate, also the guy who peed in Kristin's bed, lol) and we just started kissing. Angie- I know what you are thinking "Sue made out with someone?!?!", it's a shocker but it's the truth, lol. I don't remember much of it except him saying something about my breasts rubbing up against him, but let's face it, they rub up against everything. Shortly after my make-out session, and a few drunk phone calls later, my friends decided it was time to get me home, but not before I fell face first into the dirty snow near Rachel's car, lol. Since i was so drunk, this was a little upsetting, and I thought my pants were ruined. I don't remember being back at the house at ALL, but Lynn says they had to carry me to bed, and that I made her call Tim and tell him I missed him, and Tim says she was just yelling at him for not calling me on my birthday, even though technically my birthday isn't til Sunday, lol. I also found out that Kristin hooked up with Fetter, AGAIN, lol, when's the wedding Krissy?? All and all it was another great birthday in Buffalo.

This week is turning out to be pretty good! Today I slept in cause I had no classes (yippie). I cleaned the house, then I just did some Christmas preparing. I checked my grades online and I got 18/20 on my Stats II final! I was SOO excited cause I really thought I did bad on it, and that means I'll probably get an A- in the class. It looks like this semester might be may best so far, which is good cause I'm in jeopardy of losing my scholarship if I don't get my cummulative up. I just almost typed "get my cum. up".

Kristin left today cause she is done with finals, but she is coming back up to school on Friday cause we are all going to dinner then to the bars for my 22nd birthday. I can't believe I'm going to be 22. I'm so old... and what have I accomplished? Yes I'm in school, that's good. Yes, I have a job, that's good. But what have I really done? I guess people would say "Oh you are still young, you have plenty of time to do things", but do I really? I just feel like I should feel as old as I'm gonna be, but I still think don't have enough experiences to be turning 22, and god knows I'm not as mature as I should be!

Anywho, the rest of my day was fun. Lynn and I went to Wegmans for pizza. You'd think I'd be sick of it from all the slices I steal when I am working, but I can never get enough. Then we spent like 30 minutes looking for Christmas cards. How do you find a Christmas card for a guy who you see like 3 times a year (at most), lives in Boston, but you talk to everyday, and have "more-than-a-friend" feelings for, but you are not "together"? It was quite a process. I ended up getting a cheesy one, but I really had no choice. After Wegmans we went back to the house to wait for Beth to come over. Then we just sat around playing Dominos (don't knock it til you try it). We went to the "Midnight Breakfast" thing at school, even though we weren't hungry, just to see people, then we realized we don't know anyone at our school, lol. It was good to spend more time with Beth though, we tried to let her in on all the gossip. Now I am here, and in a few minutes I'll be in bed...

Today was GREAT! First I went to bring my Stats book back and got $56.50 for it!! That's half of what I paid for it, but I used it for two courses Stats I and Stats II, so basically I only paid $28.25 a semester for it. THEN, I saw Sam Kennedy in the hall and he paid me $10 dollars for sexual favors, lol, jk, he gave me $10 from his mom for driving him back to school from Geneva after break. Then I had to go take my Marketing final, but it wasn't bad. THEN we (Lynn, Jonathan and I) went to the airport to pick up BETH!! She was on semester at sea so she was all over the world, while we were stuck in Buffalo, lol. She looks great and is really tan, so us albinos are jealous of her. She came over to the apartment and shared stories, then Jonathan stole her off to spend some quality time... It's so great to have her back, I really missed having her around!

Last night was a lot of fun too. All of us in my house are all so sick of school so none of us feel like studying and keep distracting each other. We just all hung out in Krissy's room and shot the shit. It was good to just relax and gossip, lol. We were all a little high strung this weekend and kinda were at each other's throats, well Katie and I, then Krissy and Katie were, lol. Now I think things are all smoothed over from this semester and hopefully I will not feel the wrath of the "birthday curse" when we go out to celebrate my b-day on Friday. The "birthday curse" is all the drama that happens when my roommates have gone out for their b-days this year. Both Lynn and Kristin had drama on their b-day nights out, and I'm just getting afraid that something will ruin my night too, lol. It's a stupid superstition... but I'm just scared of it. Tim called last night too! So that made my night even better :)

well the last few days have been filled with procratination and some work. Saturday night I wasn't planning on going out at all. Kristin had some of her friends from down the street over, and Rachel came too. They were all playing games in the front of the house and I was back here working on christmas presents ;) Then when I was done I went up there too and was having a really great time, so Kristin and Lynn told me I should just get ready and go out. Half a bottle of Vanilla Vodka later I was ready to go, lol. Oh and I created a new drink that is awesome, I call it a rootbeer float. It's just vanilla vodka mixed with rootbeer... mmm mmm good. We went to Heenan's as usual. I didn't drink much there, but I really didn't need much either, lol. After a trip to Jim's Steak out I was ready to go home and pass out, and so I did.

Sunday was wasted. Lynn and I were awake at 11am, but stayed in her bed til 2:30 talking and waiting for Kristin and her guest to get up, lol. When she finally did we started getting ready so we could go eat. By the time dinner was done it was about 6pm, nap time. Finally we started doing work around 8pm, we're such bums.

Today I had my philosophy take home due, and a Stats test at 3:15. So today pretty much blew. I did go to Target though, the only place in Buffalo I can find my Gobstoppers...

Is it possible that people are as shallow and materialistic as they appear to be?

(This was suppose to post on 12/4/02 - but it didn't, so pretend I posted it on Wednesday)

Yippie! I made a blog! I've always admired the blog pioneers such as Joe and Erica, but have always been cursed by laziness and have refused to create one. I think I just always thought my life was to boring to talk about, but then again, who's life isn't boring? Plus, I have to think of our future generations, when I am gone, all of my followers may look to my blog entries for inspiration in their lives. So the blog will be my gift to society. If you are wondering why I chose to start the blog today, you must understand that the one thing I do better than laziness is procratination, which means I have a lot of work to do, but instead I have started my blog. Also, my good friend Julie once told me "I think you could solve a lot of your problems if you just write." Hopefully she is right, and I can use the blog as therapy too.



Today's word is: reflection



Reflection because that's what I've been doing most of the day. Reflecting on my emotions, my school work, my friends, my life basically. It all started when I got bored after class today and couldn't think about anything but wanting to listen to sad songs. You know that is always bad 'cause it can never be uplifting. Luckily, Kristin snapped me out of it and took me on a car ride around downtown Buffalo. Driving around Buffalo always puts me in an odd mood. Until you do it, you won't be able to understand what I mean by that. Kristin's friend Brandi came over after we got back and was talking about her trip to Europe over Thanksgiving break, it got me thinking about everything that went on when I was in Switzerland. It really got me thinking about how much I miss it over there. About how much that trip changed me. It's good to reflect on things you miss I think... Once I snapped out of the daze, Krissy, Lynn and I went to good ole Weggy's for some eats. I came back and had an amazing conversation in our "secret" Geneva chat that Angie, Erica, Joe and I participate in. Angie and I were discussing how many people we've made out with (yes, we keep a tally, lol) and then Erica started analyzing us because she is taking a psych of personality class. Erica said I was "avoidant" meaning that I'm ": highly correlated with frustration, and self reliance, negatively correlated with proximity seeking and trust, and avoidants show an inability to disclose, drinking heavily, and unrestricted sexual behavior". With the exception of maybe the "unrestricted sexual behavior", lol, I thought the description was everything that I am. It really blew my mind how much I could relate to that analysis. Erica also mentioned that "if you're avoidant you might care about someone but you don't want them all over you, that makes you uncomfortable....so you try to be "cool" but they end up pushing closer to you b/c they think you're being distant". It's scary how much that reminds me of my relationships with people. Especially with Tim, who by the way, called me tonight unexpectedly. You know that feeling you get in your stomach when you see someone you weren't expecting to see, or someone calls you weren't expecting to hear from? It's like a sharp fluttering of nervousness and it makes your heart beat really fast? I love that feeling, and I got it tonight. The last time I think I had that feeling was when I use to go to Wegmans and see DJ working. Which was like 3 years ago, so feeling that tonight was great. I think I'll end on that note! I wish you all the same sharp fluttering in your stomachs!