Wow, it's been ages since I wrote... and yet not much has changed... lol

Well that's not true I suppose. I am currently and inevitably single once again. I had a nice 15 month run of a relationship, but in the end he just wasn't the one. So to all my friends - find me some nice boys to play with!!!

I'm still working at the Hampton... day in and day out and of course on the weekends as well. I'm trying to get some time off and take a vacation soon, just to get away from work and other stresses around here. Planning something for Sept. maybe? let me know who's interested.

The Whale Watch is this weekend, la-ti-da, lol. The good thing is I can expect to see a lot of people I haven't seen in awhile, and I'm sure I'll see those that I see everyday too... I think Steph is coming home, and I'm hoping to pursuade Justin and Gabe to come to town as well...

ok, I'll try and keep my posts for up to date and less boring, but I'm not making any promises!

Ok, so I'm done being all dramatic and what not. My life is still very stressful, and I am unsure about pretty much every aspect of it, but I'm not going to dwell on it.

This weekend Erica and Steph came home on Saturday night (since it was Easter weekend). We had a guest appearance by none other than the great JW himself, who joined Joe, Stacey, the girls and I for a rousing night of drinking and other delights. We pre-gamed and took random pictures at Joe's then headed downtown. It was a typical night out, I got drunk, can't remember most of the night, but know that I had fun at least! I won't get into the drama that went down when my boyfriend showed up, but to say the least it was a damper to a much appreciated evening out with my pals.

Sunday was not only Easter, but Robert's birthday, as well as our one year anniversary! We had planned to go to Niagara Falls Canada for the night and stay at the Fallsview Hilton. We checked-in in the early afternoon and they upgraded us to a King room with a Jacuzzi... oooooh aaaaaah. We basically just hung out and went to the Casino a few times, had a nice meal and relaxed. It was nice to get away from all the people and places that were having an effect on our relationship... but inevitably, we had to return to Geneva the next day.

I'm not sure what the future holds for me... but I'm hoping it's getting better and the gods will smile on me sometime soon, lol.

P.S. the parental units will be on vacation starting April 25th and ending May 2nd, so if anyone is looking for a place to party all week... mi casa es su casa ;)

So Syracuse DID beat Cincinatti on Wednesday, in fact they went on to win 4 straight games and the Big East Championship, so Robert has been very tolerable, lol. The real test though will be this evening since they play the first round of the NCAA Tournament tonight and if they lose this after doing so well last week, it may make things harder... it's amazing how much of an influence SU basketball will have on my life, lol. Amazing and slightly pathetic...

So last weekend Steph and Erica were both in town for Saturday night. We went out downtown and did the usual Gallagher's scene, with a stop at Side Show for some shots. I know I had a good time, but details are vague. I remember talking to a few people from high school and seeing my old friend Bridget... but the rest is fuzzy. I know I had fun though, that's the important part... right?

Tomorrow is St. Patty's Day, so I'm sure I'll go out and ham it up with some of the local Micks. I am suppose to be on call at the hotel though, so that blows, but what doesn't about that job. I won't get into that now though.

Oh, I should also mention tomorrow is the 1 year anniversary of my first date with Robert...

I've decided I don't like Velvetta Shells and Cheese.... Kraft Macaroni and Cheese is much better.

I've decided that Kinnik Sky and Melissa McGhee should be kicked off American Idol.

I've decided that if Syracuse doesn't win their game against Cincinnatti today, I might not be able to tolerate my boyfriend this week/month.

I've decided I need a vacation... ANYWHERE. I'm leaning towards Niagara Falls or D.C.

I've decided that I'm going to go do an online jigsaw puzzle now, since I'm at work and that's my job.

So I'm sure you are expecting an update on my trip to Springfield and some witty stories about my time visiting with Robert's family, but I'm going to have to disappoint and say that the trip ended up being delayed and eventually cancelled by some wicked winter weather in Syracuse/Utica. We drove to Syracuse fine, watched the SU game at Steph's house, then got on the road, only to find that the road was pretty difficult to see... Those of you who know me, know I don't travel well in bad weather so I was very nervous at first. After awhile I got more use to it, but I think I was forcing myself to cause I wanted to go so bad. We got to Utica and had to turn around though because the further we went, the worse it got...

Since we didn't go to Mass., I decided to go with my parents to a brunch on Sunday, in honor of my grandfather's 82nd birthday that otherwise I would have missed. I invited Robert cause I thought it would be an excellent opportunity for him to meet my mom's side of the family since all my aunts would be there. He declined and went to his basketball game instead. This created some tension between us, since I really would have liked him to be as excited about meeting my family, as I would be to meet his. Not to mention that he has invited me to meet his extended family in the South by flying down there and I accepted without hesitation. What's done is done though, so I'll just quietly hold it against him... lol

Nothing too exciting happened last week. I went to BINGO again, and won again. Went out with Joe Thursday and Saturday. Watched Syracuse lose Sunday and watched the Oscars with Joe. Hopefully next week will have more spice to it, since this entry is pretty bland....

I'm seriously going to try to write in this damn thing more often. I check Joe and Erica's blogs like 20x a day and get mad when they don't write. I've come to the realization that I can't get mad at them since I don't write in mine. Also that it is pathetic that I get upset with them for not write enough stuff down that I know most of already....

So last night Steph NUZZO was in Geneva, so Stacey and I took her out to eat at Ciccino's (shocking, I know). After dinner I begged Robert to go to BINGO with Steph and I. I swear we arent' weird. BINGO is really fun! Also you can win money which I think everyone would agree is a fantastic thing. So Robert came with his friend Joe from Hillside and we attend Luau Night at St. Stephen's BINGO. Robert and I both won, but Steph and Joe went home losers. I'm pretty sure the boys are hooked now, lol.

After BINGO, we decided (hesitantly) to go out to this bar in Fayette called Bullseye's. It's a big hang out for Hillside staff, so Steph wanted to go to see some of the people she worked with when it was Kidspeace, and I wanted to go to meet some of Robert's co-workers. It turned out to be a really fun time. There weren't that many people out, but I got to meet some new people, and mingle with all the co-workers I already know! Steph and I killed it in darts too, lol.

This weekend I'm heading to Springfield, Massachusetts to meet Robert's family; His mother, Levonne, his father, John, and his sister Natalie. I'm not too nervous cause from what he tells me about them, they are great people and will be very warm to me. I'm sure I won't be nervous until we actually get there on Saturday. This is definitely a first for me... meeting the parents. I've never been introduced to any of my boyfriend's parents. I've been finding myself in a lot of "firsts" lately. It's nice to know that I'm finally maturing and having an adult relationship. Even if I have had a late start to my "coming of age", I'm just basking in the realization that it's all happening. I'll stop getting all gooey here and just say that I am happy.

You'll hear more from me soon! I promise...

Is it better to know the truth even if it hurts to hear?

I think that's where some secrets come from. Our own selfish desire to not want to hurt another person, or in turn hurt ourselves. What I'm asking is if it is fair to the unknowing person to withhold information that could change their emotions, or fears, or self doubts. I'm obviously not talking about insignificant information, but rather the information that we feel guilty about when it is held in.

But is it really better to know everything?

If we know all there is to know in a situation, we can't be vulnerable right? Or does knowing everything just create more tension and doubt because we have all the indicators and evidence to make guesses at the next event to happen? Which would drive someone crazy with ideas and theories...

All I know is that finding out the truth from someone other than the person who should have told you, hurts more than knowing it ever could...